In My Brother At 3 a.m. by Natalie Diaz, the speaker writes of an interaction between her brother and her mother. Her brother is wracked with pain, as he claims the devil wants to kill him. The mother did not see the devil. But she “winced at the sores on his lips” (Diaz 23). This implies he had been gnawing at his lips, likely in anxiousness. This moment depicts him as vulnerable and exposed and in a raw light. Going back to the interview with Diaz, she discusses how poetry does not always have to sound poetic, because it is an emotional language and “one of the truer ways that we can talk”. She then explains how sometimes, she just wants to say she doesn’t feel good, plain and simple, rather than use a metaphor to say it for her. Almost like a wall to hide behind. The description of the brother “weeping on the steps” and the “sores on his lips” are a return to the body, for Diaz/the speaker and others, as it depicts living with oneself even if one is troubled, or in pain. The brother’s mental anguish is exposed for anyone to see. Even his mom. But he is not trying to hide it. It might be uncomfortable for some to read, but Diaz emphasizes the need to write uncomfortably as it “has the possibility to end in joy in some way”. In this poem, to write of anxieties, inner demons, and troubles, is to be as open and honest as one can be. It encourages others to return to their own bodies, face what is harming them and to ask for help. This poem is ultimately of the brother asking for help, even if he does not directly say it. His mother can see he is troubled, as she describes him as a “hellish vision”, but the reader is hopeful by the end that she will provide her son with the love and support needed to get better (Diaz 27).
Bella Cortez